Only fools . . .

Love him or leave him  ?   That is the question. How can I stay with him, the betrayal of the worst kind,    My heart ripped out of my chest, dripping with blood but no care or concern in his voice or gaze for my heartache.  Stabbed in the back by the one who should have always had mine,   Why, oh why did you do it ?   The question to which there is no answer,  rather none that will satisfy my curiosity.  You had everything,  all the others yearn for all their lives but you threw it all away for moments that meant nothing to you then,  and even little now. Now you regret, now you see the damage done to another, by you and solely you. I dont know myself, you made me feel wanted, desired and loved like you had no other . . . .then the years of lies,  deceit and betrayal came to the surface and my perception of all changed. I lost who I was, why I was here, here with you. Should I stay and fight for the years spent ...