losing myself . . .

Ive lost myself.

Somewhere in the last three years.

Relationship change, upheaval, destruction and devastation, my whole world turned upside down, by the person closest or supposed to be  ...

Im lost, I honestly dont know what to do and believe ive tried  . . .

Ive tried reading, joining clubs, going gym, therapy and joining this blog, although I think joining this blog was more to do with how my other half met other certain people . . . Really don't wish to say any more   .  .  . 

I dont feel this is right for me and im going to say goodbye to the blog, again.

I dont think its for me.

I honestly think  its not for me, i dont know how my other half found time and effort required to keep those relationships going for so long.

As I said im lost, might be time to say goodbye to the relationship. 

Im lost and I dont know how to find me because that person is gone . . . . .